My Jester

my love, i want you to know... or i want to say, despite that you already know... i understand your need to deceive and conceal. i'm probably saying this for my own good, to vent it as a stem to the fear of unknowing, but i'll say it anyway. it hurts, and attacks my struggling belief... filling me anew with doubt in my times of hope. but i know you have good purpose, relative to us, in doing so. in the meantime i endure an eternity of doubt, in the meantime i must witness an even mix of hopefully, critically inspiring words and confusingly doubtful or unsynchronized info and misunderstood pieces to the grand puzzle of our love. just the same... i'll be here, i'll not give in, and one day i will understand you completely........